I was a bit preemptive last time during my unpublished post. I did think things were getting better but perhaps I jumped the gun that time. Perhaps I was merely just distracting myself enough to think I was better, but with enough time I’m hoping things are going to be at least easier now. I […]
Author Archives: Tristanjmnz
Undelivered Letters: Olive
I had a hard time deciding which person I wanted to affiliate with this name– or more so “character” because Olive holds such a special place in my heart. There are three different people who helped form this character in my head as I started this story back in senior year. Although I don’t really […]
Using Nostalgia as the Antidote
It was just about a month since I wrote about nostalgia last and my feelings have changed a bit since then. Naturally. I still think nostalgia as a feeling as a negative feeling to continue having and to be addicted to. Well for me at least. It’s been a primary reason of why it has […]
Protected: Crushes (Pt. 3)/ Love (Pt. 2)
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All You Gotta Be When You’re 23 is Yourself
I don’t know what this post was going to originally be about. All I know is I started this “draft” a couple weeks ago with the hopes of writing something along the lines of growing up, or something similar to the song that inspired the title. Which has been a reoccurring theme at this point/almost […]
White Whale
This one’s going to be a hard one to write. Maybe one I shouldn’t even write even but I’m going to see if I can without it getting too emotionally charged or without it being too telling, I guess? This is very tricky because I don’t know how quite to say what it is that […]
My Poison of Choice: Nostalgia
If you’re going to act like I don’t exist, please at least be consistent. I keep getting worse, better again, and then even worse than the last time. I’ve refused to talk about the things that are upsetting me because well partially because I don’t even know how to put all this garbled mess of […]
Don’t Call Me At All
It’s not that I don’t have words to say I just don’t want to be the one that speaks them To say that I’m currently in a funk would be an extreme understatement. I haven’t felt this awful since probably well maybe since 2016? And oh boy was that a horrendous year. Is this year […]
Of Age
So much time can pass and for some god forsaken reason I will still have the tendency to look back at past events like they had just occurred and I look back at it with these rose-colored glasses called nostalgia. An important thing to know about me is I (more frequently than I’d like) burn […]
Road Trips and Old Drafts
I’m not very proud of it but I’m an escapist. It’s both a character flaw and just a general character trait of mine. I have the tendency to just want to escape from most of my problems, or this boring world. I’ve done that in the past through an assortment of options; I would listen […]