A site where I write stuff that’s on my mind.
God, the amount of times I’ve written about change, about wanting to change, about my thoughts on how futile the idea of people changing is.. Needless to say, my opinions on “change” have, well, changed a lot. That is due to my back and forth relationship with the concept. It’s easy to say “Things will […]
To think just two weeks ago my biggest worries were how I was going to stop thinking and making myself feel shitty about no longer having someone in my life anymore who’s been long gone. Now with all that’s happened since, that feels like a lifetime ago. A whole other me ago. I’ll still care […]
I really gotta start thinking of a name for these kinds of posts. Having the repeated “Random Thoughts” and then the date is getting kind of boring at this point already. However, the alternative is having to think of a relevant title and having these posts actually have a centralized theme or message but these […]
Wow last week was definitely a really shitty one. What was originally just this general feeling of depression, and all the negative feelings and thoughts that just come with that chemical imbalance I had going on in my brain. I mentioned in my last post that I was borderline-suicidal. What I meant by that was […]
Yikes.. I got drunk a few nights ago and reblogged something on Tumblr from that old friend of mine. Just said “U R Loved” and wasn’t about anyone and wasn’t intended to upset them. It was a nice positive post and I wanted to spread said positivity and I really only did so because I […]
So, if my last post was anything to judge by.. I don’t think I’m quite ready for an informative and non emotionally-charged post just yet. I don’t think I ever will simply because the times I don’t have this pent up feeling waiting to be unleashed.. are times I don’t really feel like writing at […]
This is a really touchy subject for me, even still unfortunately, but I’ve been meaning to write something and have it at least be informative in some sense to my “newfound” disorder so let’s try and write this without too many emotional tangents. [Future Me: Oh boy how you fucked that up] Most people are […]
I’ve been debating back and forth as to what I should write my next post about or if I really wanted to write anything. There was a few things sure, but they were stuff based on impulsive feelings I had while still trying to figure out what to do next after. However, this past month […]
I’ve come to despise that word more and more because it makes it so easy to point a finger and say you’re upsetting me so you’re toxic and kick them out. And sure it’s a sure-fire way to make certain that no toxic people remain in your lives but also you’ll be kicking out a […]
This is going to be one of those posts where I try and argue the pros and cons to each side of these ways of thinking, but in the end I don’t really have an answer for you as to which is “better.” All I know is that personally in my past I have had […]
