Passivity vs Activity in Friendships (Waiting for Change/Making a Change)
This is going to be one of those posts where I try and argue the pros and cons to each side of these ways of thinking, but in the end I don’t really have an answer for you as to which is “better.” All I know is that personally in my past I have had […]
Living in my own Realities/My Imagination Soap Dramas (and other random rambling)
I could not tell you when this habit began but it definitely did happen pretty early on and just like the other weird thing my head used to do just to survive and cope, like creating an imaginative person to bicker between so I could better express and verbalize my feelings. That and I did […]
Returning To An Empty Home
Before I kept telling myself if things ever somehow magically got back to even somewhat like how they used to be I wouldn’t really know if I would want them to, just considering how much time has passed. I’m in a position I know for a fact I will never be happy in. Maybe that’s […]
Cinematic Deja-Vu (Netflix’s You and Sexual Education)
I hate the title of this post but I couldn’t think of a better one that describes what I was wanting to talk about in this post so I suppose it’ll have to stay. I just finished watching two shows and I got this weird feeling that I have, because I don’t know any other […]
This Year in Retrospect (2018)
I didn’t really want to write this; especially so soon after my last post. I was determined to kick the habit of writing out my feelings and the intent was to take a good hiatus from this site in general, but for the very reason I want to keep this site here.. to keep some […]
Why Do I Write? (A History of “In My Head”)
This is probably going to be a rehash of ideas and words I have already written here about my reasons towards writing. I know for certain I’ve touched on the topic before but I don’t remember if I ever went into detail about the different reasons I write and post here despite knowing no one […]
Goodbye Friends/Fixing Bad Habits
I promise soon I will start writing some posts that don’t have anything to do with past relationships, endings, or moving on. These have been core themes I’ve been thinking a lot about and have been experiencing so even when I try to avoid talking about said things, I end up writing about it anyway. […]
Welcoming Change
Edit: I had to revise this just a little bit because me getting upset while writing certainly influenced what I ended up talking about. For as long as I know I’ve been very attached to my routines. You get a sense of comfort when you know what you have to look forward to the next […]
Reflecting on (500) Days of Summer
Let’s try and talk about something different for now I suppose. I feel like I really need to write something right now but I don’t know if I’m really feeling ready to delve into more sensitive topics without having to password protect the post just because of how real those tend to get. So I […]
The Next-Next Phase/Moving Forward… Again
I can’t believe I let this get as bad as it had gotten before. I had nightmares about those times, how awful my life was and how awful I was.. I loathed who I used to be and I ended up being that person once more. I still don’t know how to cope with knowing […]